I just wanna cry and run away from everything. Did I commit anything which cause so much grieve in you? And you have to treat me that way? Thru actions, it says louder than words. Thru the way u reacted, i knew what is happening.

I'm no extraordinary person. I simply work & make lots of mistakes. I am very much unsure. Although, colleagues around gave me sarcastic remarks & cold shoulders.. I was still able to accept it, cos they r simply colleagues whom i do nt share my darkest feelings with. But, when you start to turn your back against me.. It eats me up badly..

Dearest Mr F,
The very first time when you held my hand, asking me to be yr gal. I knew you were the one for me.
During the past mths of the relationship..
It has yet been the most wonderful experience & moments I can never imagine myself. From the very 1st day, I have opened my heart and love you with all heart without any reserves or boundaries to it.

I know I have hurt you..
Earlier, all I ask for was ur clarification and u had to blow it all up this way.
At times, there just comes a time when u want to know wat is right/wrong and to clear the air. And the 1st thing u did was blowing it to me tat I checked ur phone.
Hearing it was already hurting, what more when I asked u and i was given a sarcastic remarks.

Ya Allah.. For the 1st time, I just cried so much. Not knowing what I should do. You meant the world to me. There is no one that I'm asking for other than you.
You may complain of ur appearances & your other insecurities. But to my eyes, you are the most perfect person.

If posing a question is hurtful to u.. Hw about the more hurtful remarks unto me. I'm swallowing it all for I am to be blame. You r still the perfect person to my eyes. Cos I had hurt you & done you wrong by having my doubts on you.

I know the way I put it to you was wrong. As if accusing you. I'm sorry for it. I really am.
I'm as much as a normal human being who makes a whole lot of mistakes.
I admit of my mistakes, and it's all wrong.
It's nt tat I do not trust you, like I said.. I trusted u with my whole heart. And when I hear something like this, it crush my world apart & I had to ask it fm u personally. I am sorry once again for having the doubts in you.


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As im textin this.. I've just got to find another wall to pen my thots.

I'm writing this not to pick on you, but i'm just pouring out wat I feel. Cos I do not know whom I should turn to speak of my problems to. How much I've been soo hurt by the things that have happened.

So many things hv happened since we got engaged. But I guess this one thing which happened yesterday was our worst quarrel.

I know both ur parents and u wanted that date so much, but I'm sorry.. I tried, but we can't get tat date. I do not see why you have to blow up in such a way. Starting to blame my parents and all. And obviously, as a daughter I was very hurt by it. Cos I gave ur parents my due respect and I try to love them as if they are of my own.
Have I ever blamed ur parents for anything? I don't think so rite? I know I've never.

I mentioned to you last nite too, that we shld try finding solution instead of blaming on wat has happened. Cos it's like crying over spilled milk.

U vent ur anger on me cos ur dad gotten pissed off bcos we can't get married on that date. Is it fair?

I have mentioned on compromising. The last time my parents compromised to ur mom's wishes. Rmbr when my parents wanted to have my wedding a one-day event but ur mom pleaded with my parents to have a two-day event instead? See.. My parents can compromise to that.

So, why can't your side be a bit flexible and look at it in that way -to compromise on the date. The date is a unique date, thus it's such a popular date and was already been reserved way long time back and we are left with no choice but to find an alternative date.

Aft all, why argue so much on the date cos there are so much more other issues to plan & decide upon. If we can't get the parties to compromise and decide, wat's the point of even planning for this wedding? It leads to heartbreaks and obviously there will always be the injured party.

How u r handling the situation, it's really bad. U start to blame on me for being pressurize, but u are the one pressured by ur dad's anger and vent it on me. It's not easy to be engaged cos it's the first step where u r tested on how to cope with, the stress fm ur parents, the stress fm ur fiancee & the stress fm ur in-laws. I feel u dear.

I love u and I try not to hurt. Tt's y I chose not to talk so much bout it. Cos we've been thru a lot last nite..




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I dont knw why, i can somehow contain my anger.
I know i'll bottle it up in me.
But somehw, i've learn that by bottling up the anger in me..
It gives me time to think thru. Puttin all the pros & cons and balancing wat is the next best course of action.
Somehow it's more of a win-win situation for me.
Cos when i learn to bottle up my anger, and speaking in a calm manner..
Others r not able to knw tat i'm angry but aft that i get things done my way.
Maybe tat's y pple say, patience is success ((:

#Virgos are perfectionists and must have their home ordered and clean.

Virgo people are accuracy, competency, rational, intelligent and picky.

It mentioned the characteristics of a virgo..
Hmm.. Is my character similar to the ones mentioned?
Am I picky? Haha. Oh well, of some sort.. Yes, I do agree but to a certain extent.

Intelligent..? WOW. It's such a compliment I wld say. But, I am not. Haha.

..Rational..? Hmm.. Oh well, thr are times whr I do act or behave in taking decisions or react to circumstances whereby I would follow my heart & be irrational. Hmm.. I guess, it takes someone who knws me well to second it that whatever quoted is wrong (or correct, i'm nt sure). LOL.

I hv soo many things in mind and I dont knw whr to start.
Which question to begin with.
..And, at the same time.. I don't know whether he will mistook my questions for the wrong reasons..
Urghhs.
But, if u have doubts arent u supposed to clarify it?
I knw. But, i dont knw hw he will perceive it.
I really need a 2-way conversation esp when it comes to my partner.
If im nt able to have an open 2-way communication it wld be tough. Haiyo... I am stuck.

I just wanna cry and run away from everything. Did I commit anything which cause so much grieve in you? And you have to treat me that way? Thru actions, it says louder than words. Thru the way u reacted, i knew what is happening.

I'm no extraordinary person. I simply work & make lots of mistakes. I am very much unsure. Although, colleagues around gave me sarcastic remarks & cold shoulders.. I was still able to accept it, cos they r simply colleagues whom i do nt share my darkest feelings with. But, when you start to turn your back against me.. It eats me up badly..

Dearest Mr F,
The very first time when you held my hand, asking me to be yr gal. I knew you were the one for me.
During the past mths of the relationship..
It has yet been the most wonderful experience & moments I can never imagine myself. From the very 1st day, I have opened my heart and love you with all heart without any reserves or boundaries to it.

I know I have hurt you..
Earlier, all I ask for was ur clarification and u had to blow it all up this way.
At times, there just comes a time when u want to know wat is right/wrong and to clear the air. And the 1st thing u did was blowing it to me tat I checked ur phone.
Hearing it was already hurting, what more when I asked u and i was given a sarcastic remarks.

Ya Allah.. For the 1st time, I just cried so much. Not knowing what I should do. You meant the world to me. There is no one that I'm asking for other than you.
You may complain of ur appearances & your other insecurities. But to my eyes, you are the most perfect person.

If posing a question is hurtful to u.. Hw about the more hurtful remarks unto me. I'm swallowing it all for I am to be blame. You r still the perfect person to my eyes. Cos I had hurt you & done you wrong by having my doubts on you.

I know the way I put it to you was wrong. As if accusing you. I'm sorry for it. I really am.
I'm as much as a normal human being who makes a whole lot of mistakes.
I admit of my mistakes, and it's all wrong.
It's nt tat I do not trust you, like I said.. I trusted u with my whole heart. And when I hear something like this, it crush my world apart & I had to ask it fm u personally. I am sorry once again for having the doubts in you.


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As im textin this.. I've just got to find another wall to pen my thots.

I'm writing this not to pick on you, but i'm just pouring out wat I feel. Cos I do not know whom I should turn to speak of my problems to. How much I've been soo hurt by the things that have happened.

So many things hv happened since we got engaged. But I guess this one thing which happened yesterday was our worst quarrel.

I know both ur parents and u wanted that date so much, but I'm sorry.. I tried, but we can't get tat date. I do not see why you have to blow up in such a way. Starting to blame my parents and all. And obviously, as a daughter I was very hurt by it. Cos I gave ur parents my due respect and I try to love them as if they are of my own.
Have I ever blamed ur parents for anything? I don't think so rite? I know I've never.

I mentioned to you last nite too, that we shld try finding solution instead of blaming on wat has happened. Cos it's like crying over spilled milk.

U vent ur anger on me cos ur dad gotten pissed off bcos we can't get married on that date. Is it fair?

I have mentioned on compromising. The last time my parents compromised to ur mom's wishes. Rmbr when my parents wanted to have my wedding a one-day event but ur mom pleaded with my parents to have a two-day event instead? See.. My parents can compromise to that.

So, why can't your side be a bit flexible and look at it in that way -to compromise on the date. The date is a unique date, thus it's such a popular date and was already been reserved way long time back and we are left with no choice but to find an alternative date.

Aft all, why argue so much on the date cos there are so much more other issues to plan & decide upon. If we can't get the parties to compromise and decide, wat's the point of even planning for this wedding? It leads to heartbreaks and obviously there will always be the injured party.

How u r handling the situation, it's really bad. U start to blame on me for being pressurize, but u are the one pressured by ur dad's anger and vent it on me. It's not easy to be engaged cos it's the first step where u r tested on how to cope with, the stress fm ur parents, the stress fm ur fiancee & the stress fm ur in-laws. I feel u dear.

I love u and I try not to hurt. Tt's y I chose not to talk so much bout it. Cos we've been thru a lot last nite..




- Posted using BlogPress from my iPhone


I dont knw why, i can somehow contain my anger.
I know i'll bottle it up in me.
But somehw, i've learn that by bottling up the anger in me..
It gives me time to think thru. Puttin all the pros & cons and balancing wat is the next best course of action.
Somehow it's more of a win-win situation for me.
Cos when i learn to bottle up my anger, and speaking in a calm manner..
Others r not able to knw tat i'm angry but aft that i get things done my way.
Maybe tat's y pple say, patience is success ((:

#Virgos are perfectionists and must have their home ordered and clean.

Virgo people are accuracy, competency, rational, intelligent and picky.

It mentioned the characteristics of a virgo..
Hmm.. Is my character similar to the ones mentioned?
Am I picky? Haha. Oh well, of some sort.. Yes, I do agree but to a certain extent.

Intelligent..? WOW. It's such a compliment I wld say. But, I am not. Haha.

..Rational..? Hmm.. Oh well, thr are times whr I do act or behave in taking decisions or react to circumstances whereby I would follow my heart & be irrational. Hmm.. I guess, it takes someone who knws me well to second it that whatever quoted is wrong (or correct, i'm nt sure). LOL.

I hv soo many things in mind and I dont knw whr to start.
Which question to begin with.
..And, at the same time.. I don't know whether he will mistook my questions for the wrong reasons..
Urghhs.
But, if u have doubts arent u supposed to clarify it?
I knw. But, i dont knw hw he will perceive it.
I really need a 2-way conversation esp when it comes to my partner.
If im nt able to have an open 2-way communication it wld be tough. Haiyo... I am stuck.